late nights.

i’ve had a fun night.photos plus everything else next time. i’ve the 2 loveliest girls around and i’m loving every bit of yesterday, today, tomorrow and the days ahead.

🙂

 

from today, i’ll let you live your life.

a little less happy.

it’s tiring to go through the same old mundane cycle. but that’s life. its that period of time where i feel so exhausted to lift a finger cos all that have happened seems to be too taxing. it’s only halfway through the week. another halfway more to go. sighh.

cancellation of OCIP camp i guess came at a very good time and i sincerely think that it is a blessing from god. i am so grateful. nevertheless, it’s still a busy week filled with many responsibilities that have been given to me. i can only pray that i get by. all this, plus the dismal CT grades just weigh me down furthur but i know that i can get through this. apart from school, relationships with friends have been especially strained especially when i’ve got so many things in my mind. i’ve miss a lot of ppl but what’s the point cos it doesn’t matter anymore.

it’s back to that cycle again whereby i fade into the background. i wish things were back to the they were. and sometimes, i wonder why do we sacrifice so much even when sometimes, it doesn’t makes sense. i want that strength to stand up and just move on cos i don’t ever, ever want to be as foolish as i was or the some people are. just know that i’ll always be here. like old times.

alright, i’m done with ranting here. perhaps, tmr will be a better day. god will see me through every single step. faith, is a very abstract thing.

xoxo.

what dreams are made of

this week will be a long and tiring week filled with so many things i  just can’t wait to get over with. i want this week to fly by.

nothing interesting off late except that Service Learning today was really enriching and fulfilling. OCIP stuffs after that made me so worn out but then again, i didn’t regret a single minute of it.

i’ll upload with pictures and a detailed one sometime nextwk. i foresee me having to force myself to not touch the lappy as much as i can. self control yats, self control.

alright, that’s all for now folks!
xoxo.

PS: i hope Cheltton won’t kill me for forgetting his driving test date.

so here we go again, it’s the same thing over. ‘cept this time, i know you better.

3+1.

so yesterday, me, jannah and joyene caught Sex & The City at Jannah’s place with her mum around. sumptuous lunch specially made by Jannah made the whole trip worth it. left her house around five for town. trooped around town for Kim’s present then we headed for deserts!

at Cedele’s….

just a warnin' for ya!

jannah and me 🙂

obligatory photo, heh

look at your tongue jans!

we head for some drinks thereafter, which was really my 1st time ever… haha.

H: “so which CLUB we going to?”
J&J: “HAHAHA! CLUB?!”

-.-

this was at… k, i forgot the name. but nice drinks… 🙂 

always found them very sweet together...

 check out our faces yo…

HAYATI'S FACE! unfortunately, their eyes weren't big enough, haha!

JAN'S FACE! took quite awhile to got it right...

JOYENE'S FACE! epic phailurexzx. haha!

JOYENE'S FACE 2!

 POLOROID! (which sadly, Kim and Jo didn’t get to take together… )

❤

love you guys more 🙂

 so that was the afternoon/night out. who would have thought we’d be really close eh? till A Levels and beyond guys!

xoxo.

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when you love someone…

you’d do anything just to make them feel the same as you do.

😦

fill in the blank

don’t you think we pretend too much sometimes?

we pretend to be someone else, we pretend to be happy, we pretend to be alright, we pretend nothing goes wrong, we pretend that everything’s fine, we pretend that things don’t change, we pretend that the little, fine lines that divide us in many ways do not exist, we pretend that we share an intimate relationship with god, we pretend that what happens today, remains what happens today, we pretend that at the end of the day, everyone will still be there, we pretend that everything’s alright, we pretend that everything’s not wrong.

today i stopped pretending to be all the above for just 5 mins, and i could feel the whole world crashing down on me. i realise we live in a life filled with people in masquerades to the extent that i don’t know what they’ve become. i try to hold on to a decent memory or two that allows me to recall what the person is behind all the fake-ology and i find that we are all the same beneath the surface.

scared of too many things, worrying for far too many stuff, thinking of distant things and the list could go on…

i want to stop pretending that i am not sad that i’ve lost my best friend. i want to stop pretending that struggling for my studies isn’t weighing me down. i want to stop pretending that life is all good. i want to stop pretending that i always have someone. i want to stop pretending that life’s a bed of roses.

but if i stop pretending, would it be the way i’ve always imagined it to be?

will yours be too?

FRAY <333333

fuck technology. wanted to put his pictures here but to no avail.

anyways, the kitten came back at my door and then i took it in and gave it fish and tried to toilet train the cat. i played with it for awhile and it was so bloody cute. my brother and i named him FRAY. he’s so cute!! he held my hand and played in the laundry basket. he even responded when i called him FRAY.

sigh, but then my mum was so mean she didnt wanna let me keep it. ):

so yeah, i let it go.

in really really loving memory of FRAY,
xxxxxxoooooooooooooooooooo.

the encounter with the kitten! (attn: CAT LOVERS)

today was interesting…

around 5 this afternoon, i heard a meow-ing sound from my room coming from the door of my house. my room being the closest, i could hear it damn well and at first i thought it was my brothers being annoying. and then i went to check it out then i saw a little kitten outside the door. when it saw me, it squeezed itself through the gates and i was really shocked.

me, being me am not a really big fan of cats but nonetheless, i’ve got plenty of friends who are cat lovers and have thought me how to play with cats. so i stroked the little creature and played with it until the cat ran arounf my house. haha! damn funny since my brothers were terrified but they still wanted to touch the cat. we tried giving bread, but it refused. and then… my mum came home.

haha, i wanted to keep the cat but then my mum was so against it. so i carried the little kitten outside although, i am very very very scared to carry such little animals. haha! my friends would know that i love stroking it but i can’t, for nuts, carry it. but i did anw… the moment i put the cat outside, i went back into my house. the cat however, RAN BACK INTO MY HOUSE. omg, the whole house was screaming.

so i carried it out again. me and my brothers hurried back in but THE CAT WAS TOO FAST. so it ran into my house AGAIN and hid under the table. zzomg.. haha. i badly wanted to keep it. but my mum didnt allow. sobssobs. so i carried it again this time to the 1st level. the moment i put in on the floor, my brother and i crept back but it saw us moving away. so MY BROTHER AND I RAN UP THE STAIRS! haha, and quickly lock the door.

HAHAHA. funny but at the same time it was so heartbreaking.  ):

then, minutes ago, i heard the cat meow-ing again outside my door. i so badly wanted to keep it but my mum was bent on it. )): sad. VERY SAD. so i leave it outside, now its gone.

wait… I HEAR IT MEOW-ING AGAIN!!! 😦

k, now its gone. if it comes back again, i’ll keep it.

sigh, in loving memory of my new found kitten, i hope you’re safe somewhere.

xoxo.

LIKE OLD TIMES

1. i didn’t want to blog today.
2. but it was so tempting.
3. McFly’s playing on poddie. how ancient is “cos obviously, she’s out of my league~~~”
4. no homework today!
5. PE tmr. ):
6. so many plans lined up the whole week!
7. but i’ve got no $$
8. ever felt part of God’s brilliant plan?
9. i do. (:
10. so hard to remain consistant with something.

goodnight world.